Good Morning, Hypocrite.

I'm not a "bad kid".  Frankly, I never have been.  I didn't do all those rebellious things that seemingly everyone else did while they were growing up.  My parents always joke and say that I got all my "rebellion" out early...around 3 years old.  That's when I started deciding what I was going to wear, how I was going to look, who I was going to be friends with, etc.  By the time I hit that "crucial age", I had already got it out of my system.  For example, I don't smoke.  I never drank before I was 21 (and even now, I've had only one.).  I don't have sex and therefore I've never gotten pregnant.  I don't do drugs, and I try my hardest not to swear.  So, why is it that I feel like a worse person for not doing all these things?  It seems that everyone I work with is so obsessed with breaking some kind of commandment that it's the norm around there.  And while it breaks my heart, it also makes me feel like I've been cut out of the loop somehow.  And while it makes me sad to not be included in their conversations, I am also thrilled that I'm not, you know?  Does this even make any sense?  I feel like I'm getting to that point where I'm just rambling aimlessly.  I guess what it boils down to is that I'm happy where I'm at and what I've done or not done.  I don't like feeling like an outsider, but if this is the reason that I'm considered one, then so be it.  I'd rather be labeled as "weird" for not doing these things than compromising what I know to be right just to fit in.  I've never been one to follow the crowd either, so it suits me.  I just wish it was something that I didn't have to deal with every day.  Then again, God has put me in this position for a reason.  I know, I know..."Laura talks about God too much"...well, here I go again.  

So, yeah.  This started out as a rant slash complain, but I'm thinking that it ended a whole lot better.  I never seem to really grasp an insight until I've gotten it all out, and forced someone else to deal with it too.  Haha.  So, thanks.  For both of you who read this, it's nice to know I have someone who'll listen.

Again...chau.

P.S.  I've recently become a huge fan of ampersands.  Just saying that makes me sound brilliant.  Anyways, it's those little "&" symbols.  I've never been able to draw them, till the other day I tried it and realized that I could and how awesome I feel when I do.  I know this sounds silly, but I'll intentionally write out lists sometimes, just so I can draw a little "&" to brighten my day.  Haha...what a nerd I am.